This once may be a little shorter than normal, time management has been up in the air this week.
I have been trying to get myself to bed much earlier on a night to help my body recover from training and the adjustment is still in progress. I am however seeing the benefits, so the current struggle is worth it.
“Oh, hello Black Hole of Irony”
So, off the back of last week’s blog about diet change I entered a very up and down week of diet *face palm* .
My stomach reminded me of the reason why I cut out gluten and diary from most of my diet and keep processed foods to a minimum.
Also, why oh why do Rice Noodles suck so much.
Off the back of a turbulent week of diet and time management I decided to up my self-care. It had slipped and I had stopped making time for me. So along with the stricter bedtime schedule I have invested in setting time aside on a weekend to keep on top of hair dye (yes that’s right this mane of blue and green doesn’t occur naturally) and extra skin care etc.
I have also decided that I am ready to commit to a body goal deadline of the 8th of October (my birthday).
I am committing to myself on losing a further 10kg to get myself back at the weight I was in October 2018, this was just before my dad passed away.
Since then, my diet has been a big struggle for me. It’s been a long journey, but I am finally in such a better place physically and mentally and I can see that goal is realistically in reach.
My immediate goals for this week diet wise are:
- At least 2 litres of water a day.
- In bed ready for sleep by 10:45.
- Eating withing my current KCal Limit.
I did take a little more time off work which has been heavenly. Just being able to shut my mind off to that part of my life for a few days has done me wonders.
I also ended up with a random free Saturday.
The general upkeep of the house had begun to spiral out of control but off the back of having to fix the upstairs bathroom toilet and in the process deep cleaning that room, I took the momentum into the Saturday and completely cleaned the whole house.
This has instantly made my mind clearer and more focused.
I am hoping that this give me a good platform to continue. Being more in control of my mental health is a nice segue into today main topic of musing.
“You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with.”
― Jim Rohn
So, are we a product of the people we surround ourselves with?
Is this true?
I must admit I am a believer of this theory.
But is that more to do with who I am and what my personality is like…. you know the current state of my mental health? That is the debate.
I believe this theory so much about 3 years ago I got a tattoo to represent it.
The triangle is the strongest shape. It also plays a significant roll in Jiu Jitsu, it’s the shape of the reenforced frames we create with limbs to protect ourselves and keep some form of a guard to our bodies in place.
My tattoo has 2 parts. The centre represents me and how my surroundings bleed into me to complete me.
The outside triangles represent me and how my surrounding make me stronger., my bubble is you will.
For every strength and trait my surroundings can give me…. surely though they can also take the strength and character away to…. everything is a 2-way street, right?
I am a little bit like a sponge – wow there is a lot of analogy in this week’s musings.
I absorb everything around me. The sights, the smells, the feelings… the vibes if you will.
I have come to realise this absorption is pretty much turned up to a 12 on a 1-10 scale for me.
It’s definitely a superpower but at the same time can also be curse.
I am so susceptible to taking on the mood around me, sometimes not even realising it is happening.
This happens especially if I am ‘on the edge’ myself. Sometimes I am not aware I am heading for a mental crash it just appears out of nowhere.
Now, don’t get me wrong I am not saying everyone has to be happy and positive all the time, come on everyone has their own story, everyone is going through their own stuff which can lead to mood variation.
I do however strongly believe everyone has a base line, you know the old saying “is the glass half full or half empty?”
I think everyone has an automatic go to for that, I bet if you say it now the side you tend to air towards will come first.
“Is the glass half full or half empty?”
GimpyBits Most of the time
“Is the glass half empty or half full?”
GimpyBits Sometimes
I am fully conscious the world is not black and white, it’s a beautiful selection of greys…. every noticed how beautiful grey can be by the way? Those shades can start light and graduate to dark…. Or vice versa, there’s some food for thought.
Over the last 2 years I have gone through many stages of mental health restoration… it’s still an ongoing process.
Over this time, I have come to know myself a lot better and something I have come to learn and fully accept is how badly I can be affected by negativity around me.
So the question is, what am I really trying to say here? Something I have asked myself multiple times whilst in fact writing this.
But in conclusion what you can control in life is limited. Something you can always fully control (be it incredible hard at times) is yourself.
Sometimes it is better to shorten your circle of friends than take that mental hit. Be it just temporarily to let yourself weather a storm in better conditions or a permanent decision.
Control what you can fellow Outliers… till next time.
GimpyBits 