It’s Friday night deep in the realms of Covidian times….. it’s 9:30pm and I am tucked up in bed trying to manifest my coherent thoughts for this weeks instalment into the mind of GimpyBits.
So why have I decided to be more consistent with my online content?
I am having to really think about this one…. not because I don’t know why but more because I feel why and don’t know how to put it all into words…. not in any kind of smooth way that is.
It just finally felt right… it felt right to start confronting some deep rooted issues and learning about what makes me, me. Help me work through, realise and hopefully explain to those around me why I am me….
We have amazing resources and safe spaces we can join and create on social media and the internet and I think I am now ready to start exploring them…. not just for peer support but for enlightenment and self understanding…. it’s time to embrace the diversity.
Over the last week, I have launched a YouTube video I have had edited and sitting privately on my account, I got more involved in the Nurodiversity community on Instagram and even been asked to write an article about my on the spectrum experience…. this is massive to me.
I never quite knew why I recorded my experiences, it’s something I have always done.
When I was at school I was in a group of friends that always wrote and produced short films and comedy sketches….. there must be hours of tape of our formative years somewhere in someone’s loft gathering dust.
In more resent years I started to record and edit the little adventures wanted to show my mum.
Mum’s health had declined and she didn’t get about much, I just wanted her to see what I was doing and experience the world still be only through my camera lense.
Mum has since passed and that has been the hardest thing I have ever had to rebuild from…. it has and will continue to take a long long time. But that’s for further chapters.
It occurred to me that everything I had filmed was a showcase of what I have achieved in life to this point and it will be a great way to showcase what I am going to continue to achieve going forward.
It’s showed me the ways I have learned to cope, the small things I have learned to do almost on auto pilot to get me to achieve…. this is kinda why I am here…. this is how I am going to un-jumble all these things and thoughts and make sense of it all.
If someone reads or views these things and it helps them then that’s a bonus….. lets start the journey.
Later fellow Outliers.
GimpyBits 